Reactive Abuse, Sexual Coercion, & Control.

Listen.

This might get heavy and triggering for some so

TW: Sexual Trauma, Sexual Abuse/Control.

I have endured and experienced the worst of humanity whether that’s from relationships with guys friendships and a family and I’m exposing it all so you can be free.

People are CRAZY and will bring you into their madness if you allow it.

If you’re reading this and you know what you done to me you better sittttt tight because I’m exposing you all. Predatory manipulative diddy cult leader types, people with the Leviathan/Jezebel/Ahab/Haman/Pharoah/Sambalat&Tobiah type spirit who seek to subjugate and control through coercion, withholding affection, financial abuse stealing your opportunities sabotaging you and creating smear campaigns going against you when you speak up and out.

I’m a black sheep and a whistleblower what can I say? 😊

Let’s start with the loony that can’t keep my name out of his mouth because I bruised his ego many years ago.

Loooool something I’ve learnt is that there are toooooo many beat it chick dudes.🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

What’s a beat it chick dude do you ask?

Translation:

A term coined by a meme of a girl that overlooks a NERD for a so called bad guy and once that guy becomes successful. She comes back to him and he tells her BEAT IT CHICK!

Lol there are men really like this, they think one day they’ll get to the peak of success and you’ll be coming back to them begging for their validation and wanting them back. They really think you’ll come back.

Once you dont their internal system malfunctions and shuts down.

Tooooooo funny.

They think you’ll NEVER find better.

I saw this meme yesterday of Lucious Lyon about to rap in prison and the caption said.

“me after successfully replacing every guy that swore on their dead homies they were mr irreplaceable”

Let me add actually the link, laugh with me abeg 🤣

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNdrvXXKK/

Nah I was cackling because???? They really think you’ll NEVER find someone, will never do better than them and when you do. Their head will burst into flames.

Listen ladies, girls or even men too cause some women can be like that too.

YOU CAN DO BETTER DON’T LET NO LAME WITH MONEY THAT YOU REJECTED TELL YOU OTHERWISE.

It’s a form of manipulation and CONTROL. To keep you coming back.

I thought I was the narcissist and I even told him because I dealt with so much abuse growing up I thought I was the problem.

If this is the situation you’re going through YOUR’E NOT!

I would always question myself beat myself up for HIS behaviour. Can you imagine. He’d provoke me and make me feel crazy then act like a bloody victim. To EVERYONE. And those dummies BELIEVED HIM.

No critical thought, no investigation no collecting information from both sides.

Airheads. Nothing in the brain. Not sorry 🥰

I’m going to list the things he would do to me maybe you’ve experienced the same you’re probably dealing with a narcissist, but follow closely:

1. Constantly downplaying my achievements or successes; I’ll give you one example “I was starting my aesthetics business and I told him he told me “You think your little business will be successful”’ HUHHHHHHHH. Are you dumb. I was taken aback because are you really alright in the head. As my person you’re meant to uplift me and even help meeeeeeee. But nah you downplay and crap on it. Strike one.

2. Triangulating you with other women/men/people; I used to wonder why I would get weird stares from other people that were connected to him, disapproving glances side eyes or smirks. They talking baddddddd about you, slandering you calling you crazy manipulative unstable but it’s themmmmm.

3. He would trigger me with vulnerabilities/insecurities; I shared with him not feeling good enough, my insecurities. He would compare me to my friends saying “I’m not a relationship person” but so and so is. Nah I didn’t want a relationship with you my body and spirit knew it but in my head I justified it, staying thinking it would get better. Let me tell you it never does. Just worse as you let him come back and have access to you. It will get WORSE.

4. He’ll tell you his exes or crazy or talk down badddd on them. And I’ll be sideyeing them like oh damn you did this to him? I couldn’t even see I was next. Quickly. A word is enough for the wise. Those girls aren’t crazyyyyy, he turned them MAD. But in general he’d talk mad ish about the people closest to him and I’d look at them like you lot don’t even know he dislikes you bad.

5. Sleep with women I genuinely like, or friendly with or support ; Lol I’m spilling the business because you’ll have to understand the source of my chaos.

Here goes…

There was this lovely girl who was mutuals with girls I went to secondary school with. In December of 2020 one of the first videos she put out on YouTube was posted by her friend and I thought to myself “This is something I actually need help with” and I watched it.

She was my kind of girl let me tell ya. We were very similar our interests and I took a liking to her. I commented on that first video just being eventually supportive and watching her YouTube videos allll the time. Like a comfort YouTuber.

In the September of that same year 2020 I ended things with him at uni because I thought to myself if you’re not going to commit then you’re not serious on some “Once I’m doing with my final year I’ll make it official.” Liar. I was done and I wasn’t looking back (or so I thought 🤦🏾‍♀️).

I used now this time to DATE and get to know new people get on dating apps and having fun. Let me tell you.

I had a timeeee. I was outside.

I won’t lie it was back when the apps had decent people on there and I’d literally go to loads of places and just have fun getting to know new people cause I wasn’t about to let no lame stop my motion. (Obviously now I’m surrendered to God it’s different but I won’t lie to you I had a GOOD time. 🥰🤗)

However after the good came bad, it started affecting me I was getting bad nightmares, demonic really. I spoke to my uncle about it and he told me to stop dating completely. We prayed and it all went away. I made the decision to abstain and just focus on Jesus.

February 2021 comes around now.

He’s back (typical narcissist.)

On some “I miss you, I’m sorry etc..” Narcissists will rope you in with their fake apologies to see if they can finish you one more time.

I go to his house on Valentine’s Day we watch a movie order some food. Then I start telling him about my faith and how I was abstaining, he was questioning me questioning my faith arguing with me that he doesn’t believe that the Bible isn’t reliable because it was written by ‘humans’ I thought to myself what kind of devil has overtaken this one?

Someone that had previously had faith in God and was leading Christian fellowships in sixth form. I said to myself huhhhhh. But that time also I just felt we were just so incompatible I felt it all over me the discomfort, it felt mechanical and something just felt off.

TW: Sexual Abuse, Trauma

I told him about my abstinence journey and I wanting to wait and not have sex and how I was having really bad dreams, he absolutely gaslit me and shut me down saying “Well I want sex”. And I said no. Then the begging started. Please please please please please can we just”.

I was saying no no no but I thought at the time maybe it won’t hurt, maybe it’ll be fine after all I want to be with him again and he ‘seemed apologetic’ (not true). But in my heart I really didn’t want to give in. I knew the dreams I had  caused me great anxiety fear and stress and I was finally free from them.

I didn’t want them to come back. God has gifted me with intuition and strong discernment when something isn’t right. I just felt a very dark presence around him he was smirking internally I wanted to run. We got into it and when we were having sex I lay there straight as anything whilst he was doing it to me. It was traumatizing, if I’m quite frank to say in the least. Once he was done. I burst into tears got my stuff and booked an uber home. He violated me and he knew it.

Ladies if a man is begging you for sex and you’re uncomfortable and he does it EVEN IF you change your mind when you say yes but really mean no, that’s called Sexual coercion. It’s a crime.

Around March/April I let him know that I’m ending things because I just would not tolerate his behaviour anymore.

Tell me now how he ends up on that girls YouTube channel in April and they’re in a relationship July/August time I said. Huhhhhh. One of my ‘friends’ told me cause I really dusted my feet and moved on for the last time this time.

Am I being pranked????

Mind you we just ended things. Where do you know this girl from? Of all the women in London? There are MANY! Weird.

Let me tell you:

He has stalked me, taken advantage of me sexually, spoke down to me to other people who could potentially help me saying they shouldn’t help or work with me. Slept with other women that I support or was friendly with. Message men that are interested in me things that are so called wrong with me. Then cries victim like I’m some scorned lover.

PROJECTION! HE IS THE PROBLEMMMMM.

When you stand up and finally walk away from a narcissist they are dumbfounded and in disbelief. The last thing he said to me when I finally left that abusive situation was…

“You’ll come back anyways”. Narcissist.

This is a word narcissists like to say to mentally break you down. Like you can’t do better.

I have and always will hunnyyyy. And it hurts him baddddd. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Narcissists love control, they love, power, status success admiration attention. They can’t get enough of it. Because at some point in their childhood they weren’t given it or they were abused to the point of mental dysfunction. This behaviour warrants therapy. That’s what it is.

How you can overcome a narcissist.

As Dave once said “I see karma go to work but GOD schemes harder”.

And that’s the truth right there.

No:

1. The Universe

2. Witchcraft

3. Occultist

4. Fake Evil Altars

5. Tarot Cards

6. Crystals

7. Voodoo/Hoodoo

8. Person of Power or Significant Influence

Can come against GOD. He is HIM

• I AM THAT I AM

• ANCIENT OF DAYS

• MIGHTY MAN IN BATTLE

• MAN OF WAR

• THE LION OF THE TRIBE OF JUDAH

ARE YOU DUMBBBBBBBBBB.

GOD in heaven and JESUS my SAVIOUR and LORD!!!

No phony gimmicks. No facade it’s them forreal.

Look at Diddy, RKelly, Bill Cosby, Harvey Weinstein. All have fallen down. Every dog has its day I tell ya.

You think you can sow seeds of wickedness and the devil won’t come to collect? He’s laughing at you cause he’s gonna get ya. 😊🤗

And people might say I use secular songs to get my point across which is unholy, Listen, it’s unconventional but God speaks to me through music movies songs tv shows etc. I’d listen to a song and relate to it years before it made sense. Control by Kendrick I was listening back in secondary and it felt so real to me before I could ever understand why, till now. 🤗 I relate to elements of songs most times not everything but what I relate to I relate to..not everything song is literal many are quite hyperbolic but so relatable. The anger, the pain, the betrayal, the frustration, that can turn you into a monster if you allow it.

And no I ain’t ever chinged no man down. Relax.

If you know me I’m very quiet and reserved.

All I say is take a step back surrender the situation to God.

NEVER fight back physically.

It will NEVER work. Especially if it’s just you against gangs of people that have more social financial and political influence than you. You’ll lose in the physical realm. Take it spiritual. Go to GOD! Also find a Bible believing REAL praying church that will give you community and can cover you in prayer when you don’t have the strength on some days. And pray for God to send you pastors and spiritual mentors that God will speak to them for you when you’re down.

I’ve had them call me as I’m praying telling me ‘you’ve been heavy on my spirit what’s going on’ or literally verbatim tell me what’s going on that I’ve been hiding. That’s what God does. He keeps you protected not only in heaven but on earth too.

There were many scriptures that held me down when it was me against the MANY groups of people that came against me. Oh my God I spent hours praying into the night. Surrendered myself to God and turned from my wicked ways and chose to forgive those people. (It’s was damn hard but the sacrifice was worth it).

THESE WERE MY WAR CRIES!!!!

• Psalms 37:12-15 ““The wicked plot against the godly; they snarl at them in defiance. But the Lord just laughs, for he sees their day of judgment coming. The wicked draw their swords and string their bows to kill the poor and the oppressed, to slaughter those who do right. But their swords will stab their own hearts, and their bows will be broken.”

• Exodus 15:3-5 “The Lord is a man of war; The Lord is His name. Pharaoh’s chariots and his army He has cast into the sea; His chosen captains also are drowned in the Red Sea. The depths have covered them; They sank to the bottom like a stone.”

• Psalms 9:20 ““Put them in fear, O Lord, That the nations may know themselves to be but men. Selah.”

• Psalms 9:15-16 ““The nations have fallen into the pit they have dug; their feet are caught in the net they have hidden. The Lord is known by his acts of justice; the wicked are ensnared by the work of their hands.”

• Psalms 9:6-10 “O enemy, destructions are finished forever! And you have destroyed cities; Even their memory has perished. But the Lord shall endure forever; He has prepared His throne for judgment. He shall judge the world in righteousness, And He shall administer judgment for the peoples in uprightness. The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed, A refuge in times of trouble. And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.”

• Psalms‬ ‭35‬:‭1‬-‭8‬, ‭10‬, ‭12‬-‭28‬ Plead my cause, O Lord, with those who strive with me; Fight against those who fight against me. Take hold of shield and buckler, And stand up for my help. Also draw out the spear, And stop those who pursue me. Say to my soul, “I am your salvation.” Let those be put to shame and brought to dishonor Who seek after my life; Let those be turned back and brought to confusion Who plot my hurt. Let them be like chaff before the wind, And let the angel of the Lord chase them. Let their way be dark and slippery, And let the angel of the Lord pursue them. For without cause they have hidden their net for me in a pit, Which they have dug without cause for my life. Let destruction come upon him unexpectedly, And let his net that he has hidden catch himself; Into that very destruction let him fall. All my bones shall say, “Lord, who is like You, Delivering the poor from him who is too strong for him, Yes, the poor and the needy from him who plunders him?” They reward me evil for good, To the sorrow of my soul. But as for me, when they were sick, My clothing was sackcloth; I humbled myself with fasting; And my prayer would return to my own heart. I paced about as though he were my friend or brother; I bowed down heavily, as one who mourns for his mother. But in my adversity they rejoiced And gathered together; Attackers gathered against me, And I did not know it; They tore at me and did not cease; With ungodly mockers at feasts They gnashed at me with their teeth. Lord, how long will You look on? Rescue me from their destructions, My precious life from the lions. I will give You thanks in the great assembly; I will praise You among many people. Let them not rejoice over me who are wrongfully my enemies; Nor let them wink with the eye who hate me without a cause. For they do not speak peace, But they devise deceitful matters Against the quiet ones in the land. They also opened their mouth wide against me, And said, “Aha, aha! Our eyes have seen it.” This You have seen, O Lord; Do not keep silence. O Lord, do not be far from me. Stir up Yourself, and awake to my vindication, To my cause, my God and my Lord. Vindicate me, O Lord my God, according to Your righteousness; And let them not rejoice over me. Let them not say in their hearts, “Ah, so we would have it!” Let them not say, “We have swallowed him up.” Let them be ashamed and brought to mutual confusion Who rejoice at my hurt; Let them be clothed with shame and dishonor Who exalt themselves against me. Let them shout for joy and be glad, Who favor my righteous cause; And let them say continually, “Let the Lord be magnified, Who has pleasure in the prosperity of His servant.” And my tongue shall speak of Your righteousness And of Your praise all the day long.”

• Psalms‬ ‭140‬:‭9‬-‭13‬ “Those who surround me proudly rear their heads; may the mischief of their lips engulf them. May burning coals fall on them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits, never to rise. May slanderers not be established in the land; may disaster hunt down the violent. I know that the Lord secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy. Surely the righteous will praise your name, and the upright will live in your presence.”

• Leviticus‬ ‭26‬:‭3‬-‭4‬ “‘If you walk in My statutes and keep My commandments, and perform them, then I will give you rain in its season, the land shall yield its produce, and the trees of the field shall yield their fruit.”

• Psalms‬ ‭57‬:‭6‬ ‭ “They spread a net for my feet— I was bowed down in distress. They dug a pit in my path— but they have fallen into it themselves.”

• Psalms‬ ‭56‬:‭1‬-‭9‬ ‭ “Be merciful to me, O God, for man would swallow me up; Fighting all day he oppresses me. My enemies would hound me all day, For there are many who fight against me, O Most High. Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God (I will praise His word), In God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me? All day they twist my words; All their thoughts are against me for evil. They gather together, They hide, they mark my steps, When they lie in wait for my life. Shall they escape by iniquity? In anger cast down the peoples, O God! You number my wanderings; Put my tears into Your bottle; Are they not in Your book? When I cry out to You, Then my enemies will turn back; This I know, because God is for me.”

• Isaiah‬ ‭10‬:‭27‬ “It shall come to pass in that day That his burden will be taken away from your shoulder, And his yoke from your neck, And the yoke will be destroyed because of the anointing oil.”

• Psalms‬ ‭145‬:‭18‬ “The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth.”

• Psalms‬ ‭145‬:‭19‬ “He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He also will hear their cry and save them.”

• Psalms‬ ‭145‬:‭20‬ “The Lord preserves all who love Him, But all the wicked He will destroy.”

• ‭‭Revelation‬ ‭12‬:‭11‬ “And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.”

• Deuteronomy‬ ‭28‬:‭7‬ “The Lord will cause your enemies who rise against you to be defeated before your face; they shall come out against you one way and flee before you seven ways.”

• Luke‬ ‭10‬:‭19‬ ‭ “Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you.”

• Revelation‬ ‭18‬:‭1‬-‭8‬ ‭(MSG‬‬ Version) “Following this I saw another Angel descend from Heaven. His authority was immense, his glory flooded earth with brightness, his voice thunderous: Ruined, ruined, Great Babylon, ruined! A ghost town for demons is all that’s left! A garrison of carrion spirits, garrison of loathsome, carrion birds. All nations drank the wild wine of her whoring; kings of the earth went whoring with her; entrepreneurs made millions exploiting her. Just then I heard another shout out of Heaven: Get out, my people, as fast as you can, so you don’t get mixed up in her sins, so you don’t get caught in her doom. Her sins stink to high Heaven; God has remembered every evil she’s done. Give her back what she’s given, double what she’s doubled in her works, double the recipe in the cup she mixed; Bring her flaunting and wild ways to torment and tears. Because she gloated, “I’m queen over all, and no widow, never a tear on my face,” In one day, disasters will crush her— death, heartbreak, and famine— Then she’ll be burned by fire, because God, the Strong God who judges her, has had enough.”

• Psalms‬ ‭34‬:‭6‬-‭7‬ “This poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him, And saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him, And delivers them.”

• Psalms‬ ‭34‬:‭5‬ ‭ “They looked to Him and were radiant, And their faces were not ashamed.”

• ‭‭ Psalms‬ ‭3‬:‭3‬ “But You, O Lord, are a shield for me, My glory and the One who lifts up my head.”

• Psalms‬ ‭34‬:‭4‬ “I sought the Lord, and He heard me, And delivered me from all my fears.”

• Psalms‬ ‭24‬:‭7‬-‭10‬ ‭“Lift up your heads, O you gates! And be lifted up, you everlasting doors! And the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty, The Lord mighty in battle. Lift up your heads, O you gates! Lift up, you everlasting doors! And the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, He is the King of glory. Selah”

• Luke‬ ‭21‬:‭28‬ “Now when these things begin to happen, look up and lift up your heads, because your redemption draws near.””

• ‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭4‬:‭17‬ “For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory,”.

• 1 Samuel‬ ‭2‬:‭4‬-‭10‬ “The bow of the mighty is now broken, and those who stumbled are now strong. Those who were well fed are now starving, and those who were starving are now full. The childless woman now has seven children, and the woman with many children wastes away. The Lord gives both death and life; he brings some down to the grave but raises others up. The Lord makes some poor and others rich; he brings some down and lifts others up. He lifts the poor from the dust and the needy from the garbage dump. He sets them among princes, placing them in seats of honor. For all the earth is the Lord’s, and he has set the world in order. “He will protect his faithful ones, but the wicked will disappear in darkness. No one will succeed by strength alone. Those who fight against the Lord will be shattered. He thunders against them from heaven; the Lord judges throughout the earth. He gives power to his king; he increases the strength of his anointed one.”

And finally, the KILLER 🤗

Psalms‬ ‭109‬:‭1‬-‭31‬ ‭ “O God, whom I praise, don’t stand silent and aloof while the wicked slander me and tell lies about me. They surround me with hateful words and fight against me for no reason. I love them, but they try to destroy me with accusations even as I am praying for them! They repay evil for good, and hatred for my love. They say, “Get an evil person to turn against him. Send an accuser to bring him to trial. When his case comes up for judgment, let him be pronounced guilty. Count his prayers as sins. Let his years be few; let someone else take his position. May his children become fatherless, and his wife a widow. May his children wander as beggars and be driven from their ruined homes. May creditors seize his entire estate, and strangers take all he has earned. Let no one be kind to him; let no one pity his fatherless children. May all his offspring die. May his family name be blotted out in the next generation. May the Lord never forget the sins of his fathers; may his mother’s sins never be erased from the record. May the Lord always remember these sins, and may his name disappear from human memory. For he refused all kindness to others; he persecuted the poor and needy, and he hounded the brokenhearted to death. He loved to curse others; now you curse him. He never blessed others; now don’t you bless him. Cursing is as natural to him as his clothing, or the water he drinks, or the rich food he eats. Now may his curses return and cling to him like clothing; may they be tied around him like a belt.” May those curses become the Lord’s punishment for my accusers who speak evil of me. But deal well with me, O Sovereign Lord, for the sake of your own reputation! Rescue me because you are so faithful and good. For I am poor and needy, and my heart is full of pain. I am fading like a shadow at dusk; I am brushed off like a locust. My knees are weak from fasting, and I am skin and bones. I am a joke to people everywhere; when they see me, they shake their heads in scorn. Help me, O Lord my God! Save me because of your unfailing love. Let them see that this is your doing, that you yourself have done it, Lord. Then let them curse me if they like, but you will bless me! When they attack me, they will be disgraced! But I, your servant, will go right on rejoicing! May my accusers be clothed with disgrace; may their humiliation cover them like a cloak. But I will give repeated thanks to the Lord, praising him to everyone. For he stands beside the needy, ready to save them from those who condemn them.”

Dont let the devil lie to you. He is a dirty liar and has no power when it comes to God and what he can do.

The wicked can be wicked for an appointed time but they will be cut short.

Also watch HOW TO BECOME A CULT LEADER on Netflix. You’ll understand some things.

Alexa play albums:

• The Emancipation of Mimi by Mariah Carey

• Homecoming by Beyoncé

• Sour by Olivia Rodrigo

& The Boys by Nicki Minaj & Cassie

Choose God this 2025. 😊

Lots of Love

-Lero x

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